How Many People Will Leave or See Me Differently?
(Originally written October 9th) My wife told her mom about my plans to transition yesterday. I don't really know how it went--the jury's still out I suppose. What is tough already about the situation is I don't feel anybody on her side of the family found me to be a very fun or exciting person. "Stick in the mud". Rarely up for doing things, having to change exciting plans to better fit me. Nathan is boring and closed away and not terribly expressive. At the end of the day, I honestly don't know how well I'm liked in the family. After this? I imagine it'll be even less. At least as Nathan I didn't introduce this complication into the family. At least as Nathan I fit the appropriate role for father when we'd be seen outside. Now? Now I'm another oddity. My wife told me her mom asked if anybody can just be normal. I quickly answered her, "not when you're damaged". And that's what I am. A damaged man tired of trying to hold